One Year Later
How has one year felt like a lifetime and a few weeks all at once?
I have spent the better part of my twenties trying to find my purpose in this world. Which means, I have spent the majority of my life planning every moment as if it was a task on a to do list.
And like many, that to do list was thrown out the window in 2020.
Imagine my surprise when the answer I've been searching for walks into my life during a 6am decision in October of that year.
The most surprising thing of it all, is that one year later, I am still acting on at 6am decision, and loving every minute. But before we get into that, let me take you back to October of 2020.
The first day I spent reading in 10 years.
The first thing you should know is October has traditionally been the worst month for me.
It’s like Mercury is in Retrograde all month long. And while I have tried multiple things to get me out of these funks, I usually hunker down and prepare for the ups and downs the spooky season brings me.
Somehow last year, I came across a Tiktok recommending A Touch of Darkness by Scarlett St. Clair. I was not on Booktok (aka my FYP was not fully books) and I personally had not picked up an actual book to read in over 10 years. But for some reason this book intrigued me and I was determined to find it and read it.
A few weeks later, I ordered the books on Amazon and I read all three books (ATOD, ATOR and AGOF) in less than 2 days.
The next time I went to the bookstore I bought Throne of Glass. You all know the rest.
I don’t think I can ever properly put into words what this past year has been.
It’s been exhausting, stressful, overwhelming, magical, enchanting, transformative and so many other things. I’ve rarely taken a break (in fact I think the longest I've gone is 12 hours) and yet I truly understand the phrase “find a job you love and you'll never have to work a day in your life”.
Even on the most stressful days when I’ve cried from being so overwhelmed, I never stopped being grateful. Grateful for every follower, like, and view who turned into a friend. It’s the moments where I see Buds meetup or someone picks up a book rec from me that I know it’s all been worth it.
In a time in a time where we all feel so isolated, I have never felt closer to the world.
So as I celebrate this 1 year anniversary and look back on the best year of my adult life, I am also thrilled to think of what the future holds. Because I know we are doing something magical and this is just the beginning.
